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SPOKEN WORD/POETRY:

So I am Walking down the street and all I can feel is the pain of the leaves as they fall the trees

All I can see is the fear of the cars as they drive down the road with no idea where they are going to go.

And I can hear the symphonies of the wind as it cries out to rest of the planet letting me know that it is dying.

But what i can't feel is what the people who pass my by are feeling inside,

so i look into their eyes only to be met by this terrifying emptiness which they hide inside.

All Humans, taking step after step along this broken path in a hope that someday people will know how they are feeling,

see what they are seeing and take away their pain,

because in this never ending ocean that we see as our own

we are all just strangers looking for somewhere we can call home.

But all we see is a glazed over lie that our eyes are trained to tell the world.

This lie that we are all the same.

If I am really to be alive ,

to live my life and enjoy all my time

I need to remove this vest that the world has caged me inside,

I need to let people see how I am feeling through my eyes and release the emotions that I keep prisoner inside.

STRANGERS:

DEAR BEST FRIEND:

Dear Best Friend,

I wish so much that I didn’t have to sit and watch you cry.

I wish I didn’t Watch the tear drops roll from your eyes

Each one burning, filled with pain from your heart

Sent from Deep inside.

I want to stare deep into your eyes

and engrave into your tainted soul that

it’s okay to say goodbye,

to say goodbye to that small part of you inside

that spread like venom and locked the real you up tight.

you are enough, you are tough, so

Stop looking into the mirror searching for more

When your already the person that you have been looking for.

Defeated by the concept that you will never be enough.

And it’s about time that you stop looking and see

You are Amazing.

Dear Best Friend

I want to ask why

Why can’t you spend a day looking through my eyes.

If I told you, I loved you would you even believe me.

If I told you I miss being able to hold you

Or that I missed your smile when you first woke up in the mornings

Would you even think of me?

If I told you that It broke me knowing that I broke, you

Would you remember a good memory with me?

Did you have any good memory’s with me.

I wish that u smashed the glass to the rose-tinted windows that I hid behind sooner.

I can feel the shrapnel of my love for you wedged tight inside my heart.

Toxic like the violent red berries you fed me on that winter’s morning.

You meant the world to me …

You built my world for me

I gave you my heart and you nourished it

I took yours and all I managed to do was tarnish it

Please come back so I can take away the pain

I know you will never be able to look at me the same.

IF I TOLD YOU I LOVED YOU

KADOTA

Broken,Damaged, Weak. That’s what it feels like to be in love with an Addict.

The strings of an old Violin seem to play louder now than the faded beats which come from my heart. I fell in love with your smile, your eyes, I even loved it when you would cry but The connection our souls once shared, ripped apart and worn. Stolen from me to feed your addiction.

Addiction… the most vicious disease.

I Was 17 when I fell in love by looking in your eyes, 18 when addiction made you feel alive and 19 when I realised it will be the reason that we both died

Every inch of me was poured into trying to make you happy, the rose-tinted glasses which I wore perched upon my nose shattered a long ago.

I knew when you were really there, the wicked smile that drugs created for you etched into my imagination. It scares me, the way that you are able to change. Someone who once made me feel safe is now the reason that I want to run away.

I lost the only one thing that I had ever I loved, you.

I didn’t know that self-hatred could be so powerful, the mirrors in my house covered with old dust sheets, pain buried so deep that I cant even stand the sight of me. Is that the reason that you faded so easily, the worst parts of you seen in me.

Your poison spread and covered me, I suffocated buried in guilt. At this point I think nothing can save me. I would never wish the desperation that I feel, to have you back on even my worst enemy. Which at the moment I still think is probably me.

Why does my love fail even now to make you smile.